Saturday, December 29, 2007

I am upset BUT I can't wait for next week.

Update: I had a one to one meeting with Kit, one of the OIAM crews today. We discussed what went wrong with my performance yesterday. I watched my performance again & I found out that I sang my part way earlier than I should. Maybe because I wasn't focusing enough. I have found out what's the real problem. I couldn't hear the music from the monitor (Monitor is where singers hear their voices from). If you guys watch my performance again on the first 40 seconds or so, you'll see that the music & my voice didn't match at all. Sigh.... and I didn't care to correct it at all. The band had to run after me. This is because I couldn't really hear myself & what's worst is that I didn't notice at all. Anyway, it was an experience. Looking forward to next week's performance.

Hi all.

I just got back from Shah Alam, Sri Pentas 2. I am sure like all of you out there, I too thought I did really badly for the performance tonight. I was not satisfied at all. I am pretty upset actually. I did fine during the rehearsals, nobody questioned my song choice, and that song suits my voice BUT my performance didn’t go as planned. There were so many things that were happening during the show, which left my mind unfocused before my performance. Never have I thought I would be so carried away with my emotions and I was not able to control it. As you guys know, Roni & Rina has already being voted out. I felt really sad for them (I know, I know, it is normal to be sad especially in shows like this where it is so full of drama). Tapi, kitorang semua banyak spend masa sama-sama, so bila Roni diumumkan keluar dulu, I rasa sedih. Everybody was sad actually. I tengah tahan menangis sebab I tak nak hilang focus. Memang sebak la jugak sebab kitorang semua memang spend masa 24 jam kat hotel yang sama, buat aktiviti pun sama-sama. The rest of the top 12 and I hugged Roni backstage. Masa ni semua org bertambah sedih. Bila Marion/ Awal umumkan yang Rina pun terkeluar jugak, and masa dia nyanyi lagu ‘Hurt’ tu semua org lagi la menangis lagi dan lagi. OMG. I masa tu duduk senyap jer. Tapi inside I memang sedih sangat because I know I will miss them. I know ini adalah competition dan I tak sepatutnya let drama air mata ni get in my way to give a good performance. I was unable to control it.

So kisahnya, masa tengah nyanyi lagu Idol I tu, I tengah sedih sebenarnya. I tak pandai nak control perasaan. Terbawak-bawak masa performance. Akibatnya sebab tak focus, I lupa lirik, I lupa tempo, I lupa apa nak buat, I tak menyanyi dengan bebetul, and masa tengah nyanyi tu, I tak sedar langsung apa yang I buat but I tahu I sedang membuat persembahan yang teruk. Kalau nak compare ngan masa I nyanyi lagu ‘TIME” tu memang jauh beza nya. Tapi I tak salahkan sesiapa, hanya diri sendiri sebab tak pandai kontrol emosi. I tahu I boleh menyanyi. Kalau tak takkan Paul Moss & Syafinaz pilih I untuk masuk competition ni. Masa I baru habis nyanyi tadi I know I did very badly. Macam orang yang baru nak belajar nyanyi pulak. I pun tak tahu kenapa. I think next time I have to know macam mana nak control diri bila nak perform and kena focus lebih lagi. I tak salah kan kesedihan sebagai penghalang untuk I nyanyi dengan baik. I think I kene belajar dari kesilapan ni, and improve. I am ready to move on and I am looking forward to the next performance! I nak buat lagi bagus! i want to do a better one... I need to redeem myself. I know mesti lepas ni banyak komen teruk-teruk kat YouTube ke pasal my performance tonight, or kat mana-mana ke… But it's OK. I tahu & sedar, memang I tak perform seperti yang diharapkan. So wish me luck for the next performance OK, and hopefully I will get to do what I want to do on the next round.

Ini semua pengalaman yang perlu I belajar dan belajar lagi. Again, terima kasih pada semua for your support, constructive comments, kata-kata semangat and please do vote for me if you all do believe in my talent and my singing ability.

VOTE YES IZ to 33399 and 33838
Goodnight & terima kasih sekali lagi! IZ

p/s: Esok ada roadshow kat Selayang Mall from 3 to 5pm. Kene tido awal.

13 comments:

Kenji Asakura said...

Yep, like you said, it is a competition. Try to control it, practice makes perfect. But the coat on the suit thing, it is amazing. Good luck!

juli ah said...

i wont say anything nice just to 'jaga hati', so yeah. u know. and i understand how hard it must have been to concentrate and do ur best after seeing ur two friends being kicked out of the comp. omg, is that how it really works? wow. scary ok.
but good thing is, if u are very much into the comp, knowing that u're safe would help boost ur confidence & all resulting u to perform well. dah lepas, kan.
but yeah, emotions can get in the way, and i think that's a good thing jugak. they are looking for that one in a million anyway, right? and that person should be able to do what others cant, is better than anybody else in whatever (every) aspect & all. being a singer pun, u have to be able to control ur emotions. like, contoh lah, ur cat died. u're mourning but u have a show. takkan u want everyone to know kot kan, u're a performer, and entertainer. people want to see you PERFORM & entertain them (of cse, duh :P). u just broke up with ur gf. it helps sikit if u're singing a sad song, but yeah..
takpe. REDEEM YOURSELF. learn from mistakes&experiences.
** nice outfit. cool shoes.

Anonymous said...

Yeah, u noe i noticed that u were sad on the stage at the end of d show.
Somehow my guess was right after I read this entry.
But yeah IZ, maybe this is the first elimination, u dun have a clue how it wud feels like, getting eliminated or seeing other frens being eliminated.
So, learn from it cos afterall wats done is done.
I know u can do muc muc muc better. U r different from the rest. Even d song that u chose shows that uniqueness in u:)
I think u r d only person who sang unfamiliar songs to many Malaysians I suppose.
For that, bravo, u r ambitious n I respect u for that as that song is quite fast beat plus the movements etc.
All the best for u IZ. Hope u will be in good control for the next show. And shine as u always do on stage:)

Azreenyusof said...

Yeah, u noe i noticed that u were sad on the stage at the end of d show.
Somehow my guess was right after I read this entry.
But yeah IZ, maybe this is the first elimination, u dun have a clue how it wud feels like, getting eliminated or seeing other frens being eliminated.
So, learn from it cos afterall wats done is done.
I know u can do muc muc muc better. U r different from the rest. Even d song that u chose shows that uniqueness in u:)
I think u r d only person who sang unfamiliar songs to many Malaysians I suppose.
For that, bravo, u r ambitious n I respect u for that as that song is quite fast beat plus the movements etc.
All the best for u IZ. Hope u will be in good control for the next show. And shine as u always do on stage:)

eMilyism said...

Hi Iz..i guessed everybody made their point in here for you.

This is one part of the reality TV that we never expected: we actually feel really sad that our friends got eliminated. not us!

We thought we would rejoice in the fact that we're saved to perform for yet another week.

Be thankful of that fact.

And always be prepared for the unexpected.

eMilyism said...

I agree with Azreen that Iz has positioned himself as the only contestant that always choose a song uncommon to viewers. He does not try to play safe and i people actually respect that.

Next week, he'll make us wait in anticipation as he will try to venture into another song that we all will never expect him to sing.....

Iklim's Suci Dalam Debu.

Anonymous said...

Iz. I do not care what anybody thinks. You tried something completely different out there today. Paul said that it showed your limitations - but I think it just showed how much you actually have to offer! This was something I completely didn't expect. I am so excited to see what you bring next. It was NOT a terrible performance. Honestly. AND YOU LOOK SO DAMN HOT! You're the whole package baby!

Kenji Asakura said...

Props to Azreenyusof for her comment. You are a dare devil, my friend, a great one. Instead of playing safe, you sing songs that to Malaysians, they take it as a new song. Take this week's performance as a lesson that you won't repeat, take it as a challenge, challenge yourself to control your emotions.

Nessa said...

Learn from your mistakes. Plse entertain us... it's going to be the 3rd week... someone must shine, it's One In A Million ya :)

BTW, please (x1,000,000) tell Mark to sing slow songs... fast tempo doesn't suit him and preferably Malay songs.

Good luck to you all. Keep those emotions in check. Remember 'Survival Of The Fittest'. Happy New Year :D

IZ said...

a big thank you for all your comments and support, I so badly need it. I just got back from a roadshow at Selayang Mall. Seeing all the people who believed in me today really made my day! So yeah, it was all the past and I can't wait for this Friday. Vote for me and keep supporting me!

Anonymous said...

u gotta move ur arse off... do sumthing and stop giving reasons... show ur abilities and stop being emotional ... control ur emotions well... am very disappointed with ur recent shows coz i know u have brilliant tone and vocals .... be professional as thats what u comitted for... if u not serious think u better go back to ur previous profesion ...

and be humble please, dont make it too stand out that u r 'melbourne-based' lad or kindsa thing... start low at a humble point, and climb ur way up!!!

am sure u will be a superb malaysian male singer! dont get pissed with my honest comment.. stay cool and i look forward to ur next performance (hence i hope u wont get voted out)!!!!!

IZ said...

I will try again! I am actally looking forward to perform again IF I get the chance. I'll stay focus. No worries. I really really do appreciate your comment Anonymous (I really want to know who you are but it doesn't matter) I will only get better with this. Thank you again and keep the comments coming. Just write it here. Thanks! IZ :-)

wahine said...

Hey Iz, we watched you while my family and I were away on vacation..so definitely you were part of us and I know many families like mine support you silently and with our votes.

Entertain and educate. That's should be your slogan this week. People come and go but if you want to stay on..u best do the above.

I hope your good luck stays with you this week so that you can stay on. Hopefully you have genuine fans out there who would vote yo in. Tapi don't be down even if u get to be the bottom 3 this week, ok coz at least you are in.

Hidup ini memang sakit...tapi kita harus harungi ok.

What's done in the past should be left to the past but come next week, you have to be stern with your emotions, hold it in check and give the best performance of your life.

Good luck..and we had voted.

Wahine